Enlightenment : The higher the frequency of your energy or vibration, the lighter you feel in your physical, emotional, and mental bodies. You experience greater personal power, clarity, peace, love, and joy. You have little, if any, discomfort or pain in your physical body, and your emotions are easily dealt with.

The gut drop of feedback.. My palms we’re sweating.. My mind was swirling.. I almost felt lost.. Like as if running away from it all would be better than feeling this lost.

I’ll start off by saying this all sprouted from a fuck up on my part.. In my organization, ownership is the leading thing.. Meaning, your responsibilities likely affect more paychecks than just your boxes being checked.. Something as simply as an email being sent on a Sunday instead of a Saturday results in thousands of dollars left on the table, and this is something i’d love to explain in another blog, and likely one of the reason your business isn’t growing the way you want it to.

The feedback from my boss and mentor Bedros Keuilian was.. “Your heads in the clouds, I love that about you but, I also hate that about you because I need your head to be down here.. Doing these things.. If you want to keep your head in the clouds, you should probably just become your own boss”

My job was such a big part of my life and my operating system.. The thought of being pushed off the ledge led me down the 7 stages of grief, and for the next week I bounced around the 7 stages like pinball..

I was left with a choice, It was like I found myself in a hallway and choose a doorway that was labeled “Grief”, “Anger”, “Bargain” or I could choose the lit up door at the end of the hallway that read “Enlightenment”..

How could this be the best thing to ever happen to me?

And thats a choice in perspective I can make. Its a choice we can all make at every fork in the road in life..

The thing that i kept as my North Star, was to “Choose Enlightenment” like quite literally repeated it to myself thousands of times in that span, it’s likely going to be my next tattoo.

But that still didn’t take me away from the fear of it all, it felt like I had a flashlight in a dark forrest, but my flashlight only extended to 3 feet in front of me.. I was living day to day, hour by hour, I felt the gun to my head operating system, the “if you had a gun to your head and the person was saying “Figure this out or else ill pull this trigger..”

so much so when my sister came to town, she asked me “What’re you doing for your birthday next week?” and I couldn’t reply anything but “I don’t have a fucking clue..”

My last day of work I was heading to Chicago that night and still couldn’t even envision myself being there. Its a weird perspective if you’ve ever been in this type of seat.

What I found was that the closer I stayed to honesty, clarity and enlightenment, the more opportunities arose instead of disappeared.

So when I presented the plan for the next phase,

Bedros gave me some affirmation, “Dude you're not alone in this, if you have a question, are feeling stuck.. Just text me bro..”

Friends who’ve helped me process, met me with excitement..

So i’ve chosen through all this processing, to never operate outside of my 5% ever again, and hone in on closing for entrepreneurs and companies, via DM’s.

I did over $900,000 in my time, and can help many more and best part of all I can scale and serve more through a team I can build.

I’ve had nothing but support and opportunities come my way, and I’m grateful on both ends, one side that opportunities and support have come my way, but most of all that I can be proud of the person I became that those are even presented to me. I’m eternally grateful for this phase.

My last day of work, turned my first paying client, wrapped up this whole processing phase.

Literally the last hour of being with my organization, an hour after clarity hit me that I should be closing in people’s DM’s..

Bedros and Byron, in the middle of their coaching session pull me aside.

Bedros goes “So bro! It’s your last day! Any plans for how you’re going to make money in the future?”

I reply “Yeah, its something i’d want to get your blessing on, but to close in DM’s for clients out there who need it..”

Bedros turns to Byron, a smile on Byron’s face,

Bedros utters - “Funny how the universe works in weird ways..”

He goes, “Do you have your first paying customer yet?”

I reply “No”

He comes back with “Well you do now.”

“We’re making X each month, we have too many leads and not enough closers to help them get on board, would you be in?”

“Absolutely” I replied.

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So that’s it, I’d like to do a video on this somehow but that’s the next phase, and i’ve come to realize I have the most fertile soil on the planet, and that I’m allowed to be proud of myself. A big realization that a friend Nita helped me with, is that we take so much ownership of our flaws, our faults, our mistakes.. But we become bashful for our wins, progress and creations.. Own both sides. And so i’m doing that.

That still doesn’t leave me without fear though.. I’d pay any amount of money, I’d chop off my left leg if that’d be required, to just have a polaroid picture of where i’ll be in 6 months.. But I can’t, none of us can. But maybe that’s the operating system we need?

I leave you with this, you’re probably at a time of decision, whatever it is. Make the decision from a place of Enlightenment, not shame or guilt or fear or doubt.. Thats low vibration shit.. But always remember, your vibration is a choice.. Trust yourself, that for an opportunity to be presented, it means you’re right where you belong.

Take a breath, Chose Enlightenment and take the first step.