Every Decision BUILDS or BREAKS Your Confidence

Now that I have your attention😂

I have a story I can remember halfway through my Phase 1 portion of 75 Hard..

It was one of those Saturday mornings where I’m heading somewhere far out of LA for a round of Golf with my friend Taylor..

It was around 9am and I’m driving from San Gabriel down to Oceanside..

I figure I’ll grab some food on the way so I could make it through the round which I knew we were walking that day..

I looked up a breakfast burrito on Yelp, and found a donut shop that had 5 stars and 1 ($) dollar sign.. 5 stars and 1 ($)?! Right up my alley..

I figure a breakfast burrito would be the best thing to eat, as I can drive and eat it no problem

Part of my 75Hard diet restrictions includes fried stuff..

Anyways, from the menu I see there are “potatoes” included and my assumption was that they were the chunks of potatoes or cooked on a flat top..

I get my order, take off, I’m back on the road and I take this huge bite out of the top of my burrito..

And I tasted something amazing.. lol

It was a great burrito,

and before I swallowed,

I can feel some great textures swirling in my mouth,

and I knew it..

I had to look down to confirm but

a beautiful sight to see was waiting to meet my eyes..

FUCKING TATER TOTS..

GLISTENING IN THEIR DEEP FRIED GLORY..

Amazing choice for a breakfast burrito..

But not for me..

I contemplate for a second as I’m driving..

in a sequence of thoughts, getting more and more disgusting before turning great

”Did I just fail?”

”Do I just spit this out”

”Is this really fried?”

”Ahh nobody will know..”

”You’re halfway through just eat it and keep going..”

”Nobodies around..”

“…

…

…“

Im doing this..

I spit out my bite..

I said to myself

“Well how many people would justify this?”

”How many would go through and say they didn’t just see themselves do that”

”How many would say it was a mistake and they get a pass”

”How badass would you feel to make this turnaround with defeat, loss, failure literally in your mouth..”

”I’m doing this..”

“I literally tasted defeat..”

”Imagine this turnaround..”

I then found myself knuckle deep into a breakfast burrito driving down the street,

picking tater tots out of my burrito

A pleasant site if you were driving right next to me at the time😂

im thinking to myself

You feel like a fucking idiot, but you’re going to be glad you did it..

And I did.

And I went on to finish the Phase,

never even getting close to that taste..

Its something I’ve learned right then and there

Even if you accidentally taste defeat,

there are split seconds between realization and decision that will confirm defeat..

Even if you lie to yourself, and everybody else about making that decision to fail,

maybe nobody will find out..

But YOU KNOW..

That motherfucker looking back in the mirror knows..

And that breaks your confidence, your credibility, your reputation, and your trust in yourself..

BUT

If make that choice,

no matter how stupid it feels,

no matter how close to crossing that line in the sand you drew,

you can always CHOOSE to turn around and make it a win..

Which feels 10X better..

trust me.